retourne du temps perdu

i've been going through stuff

my mother looking happy and jolly before the multi infarct dementia took hold

RIP Mum



my dad looking young
i don't know when this was taking but by the look of the car and of the way he's dressed I now might be older now than he was when it was taken -- he looks young

RIP Dad


me aged about 16 -- before i only wore black -- but looking serious -- my grandparents had died in the previous 2 years and i had an unknown number of suicide attempts under my belt yet I was at Sixth Form and life had started again


my passport photo -- issued Oct 1982 -- so I'm 13



perdu but i'm still wandering on

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In the shower cubicle after swimming tonight it looked as through someone had brutally murdered a raspberry. There was raspberry arterial spray all over the walls; the colour of the raspberry syrup you put on ice-creams. That is the image that popped into my head partly as a result of the crime fiction i've been reading recently but other than that i'm not sure what the image says about my head!

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John cleared out the front room of my accumlated server stuff, chitting seed potatoes, motorbike stuff and camping gear -- somehow all of it got stashed away -- we went to IKEA and now we have a dinning room plus another bookshelf, more pictures and plants

The Sinner * * *

The Sinner by Tess Gerritsen
so so as a thriller but

SPOILER AFTER CUT

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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
i've emailed the council and they replied informing me that i haven't even been shortlisted for the library assistant job that i would have been perfect for

since if anything i'm over qualified i want to know why

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lost in transition

The Apprentice * * */ * * * *

The Apprentice by Tess Gerritsen
good but disappointing compared with The Surgeon

SPOILER AFTER CUT

The Surgeon * * * *

The Surgeon by Tess Gerritsen
tense and exciting
my heart was pounding

SPOILER AFTER CUT

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Meet me in Montauk

Glasshouse * * * *

Glasshouse by Charles Stross
very good his best so far

SPOILER AFTER CUT

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it's weird the number of times i dream i'm just trying to go to sleep just before i wake up

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it looks like i'm going to be spending a lot of time talking to the police well one particular police officer well John who's moving in

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WTF and general weirdness
why is there a huge hexagon at Saturn's North Pole -- first seen 20 years ago



see here for more and here for JPL Cassini website article

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that's how I feel about libraries