I bow to the East
I bow to the West
I bow to the Sun, the Moon and the rest
I bow to thee
and then I am still
and try to find the courage
to show the same respect to me

I lower my gaze
then shut my eyes
and breathe

him:love
her:is it?
him:obsession?
her:now you're talking.
him:unrequited love
her:too often a posh way of saying stalking. Learn to listen to the No.
him:
her:better

I remember
I remember
Rockin' and Rollin'
to Hüsker Dü and MBV
I remember
I remember
Being 13 maybe 14
in a dark garage
standing on an upended suitcase
with electrical cable tied around my neck
Rockin' and Rollin'
Gathering my courage
I jumped and the cable snapped
Now I am Rockin' and Rollin'
with memories crowding in on me
I remember the handprint she made
on the student halls wall
her period blood mixed with my cum
I remember
I remember
Rockin' and Rollin'
movie quotes
and song lyric fragments
explode - fireworks and mortar shells -
wash up on the beach
and now I can't sleep

unwind
unwind
let the clock drift like a raft

pardon me for being a fool
pardon me for not stepping back
I said the words I can't retract
it is dark without you

I see no dawn ahead
I must learn to live again
to slowly uncurl my fern frond heart
and stretch towards Spring

my love for you is locked deep in my heart
I must take the key
and let it free
to fly
to fly
and let me be
complete
in the knowledge
that you don't love me
and that's OK
I release myself
from a prison I made myself
in myself
be free and fly

my feelings for you
are perhaps just psychotic residue
that slowly burns away
in the light of reality
and yet yet yet
I
you
I cannot see

Let the dew burn away this morning

I stand in the ruins of our friendship
and survey the wreckage
I measure the memories
from 20 plus years
gone down the shitter
if if if
if I hadn't been such a twat

too late