I love to dream but
tonight I saw the ovens
of Auschwitz - dust plumes

Holocaust ovens -
Not for baking bread - cooks flesh
And turns it to dust

I saw the dust plumes -
Holocaust volcanoes - dream -
crematoria

There was a train and
a valley filled with ashes -
Holocaust ovens

the seasons - rhythms -
the sun phasing in and out -
photons and shadows

gods and goddesses
of rivers and fire, the sky,
the seasons - rhythms

acidalia -
Aphrodite washes in the
fountain - the Graces

close the door and switch
off the lights - I don't live here
anymore - darkness

let go of the dark -
let go of tomorrow and
yesterday too - clear

desert - swirling wind -
loneliness - martian wasteland -
acidalia

slut - whore - magdalene -
words thrust at women who break
the rules - labels - roles

buddleia - nano -
the postcyberpunk visions -
rain and ants - neurons

I am dragged across
a carpet of razor blades
and blood - the ants watch

the joy of life and
the Protestant work ethic -
the beach and the ants

I want to whip you
and I want to lick you 'til
you shudder and burn

staring at the wall -
lost deep inside magical
thinking - swim - surface

circle - gravity -
hydrogen - supernova -
tidal forces - make

it doesn't have to
be perfect - the important
thing is "to do" - shells

lemon and water -
the changing light moving through
the glass - ice surface

drift on the breeze like
a money spider - sky high -
across oceans - reach

I need to rewire -
neuroplasticity is
my hope - change - learn - build

pasta, green pesto,
soured cream with chillies, spring
onions and sausage

slice, slide, sycamore -
propeller, parent - death - dust -
metal rich stars - time

drink water - hide in
clouds of sleep and dream of flight -
kites and balloons - sand

midnight from my eyes
burn hollow flower stems and
petals turn to ice

detach from the world
and stop worrying about
things you cannot change

the campfire burns bright -
Corona Borealis -
and satellites pass

Erebus and Nyx -
a fantasy that haunts me -
it will never be

Lagrange point - balance -
Ithaca - swimming - changing
light and the tide - Moon

slowly walking home -
little girl on my shoulders -
my friend's daughter - shells

silver - purple - black -
the end of the river smiles -
shoulder - gentle rain

globular clusters -
the Milky Way's rotation -
the Crab Nebula

a zeppelin of
emotion on fire - raining
debris down my soul