I remember
I remember
Rockin' and Rollin'
to Hüsker Dü and MBV
I remember
I remember
Being 13 maybe 14
in a dark garage
standing on an upended suitcase
with electrical cable tied around my neck
Rockin' and Rollin'
Gathering my courage
I jumped and the cable snapped
Now I am Rockin' and Rollin'
with memories crowding in on me
I remember the handprint she made
on the student halls wall
her period blood mixed with my cum
I remember
I remember
Rockin' and Rollin'
movie quotes
and song lyric fragments
explode - fireworks and mortar shells -
wash up on the beach
and now I can't sleep

unwind
unwind
let the clock drift like a raft