Wednesday, December 26, 2012

wash my clothes, water
the plants, start a book, make
a chilli - porridge

Monday, December 17, 2012

the wings of the crow
fly over the worm rich soil -
on the ground fruit rots

Sunday, December 16, 2012

the dark seeps under
the door and peers at me through
the window - spiders

Saturday, December 15, 2012

the sea calls me and
the river is married to
the rain - purple sky

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

walking worm food and
dust - my heart beats for now but
the present unwraps

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

the dark storm returns
and rages and burns my soul
naked again - raw

Sunday, December 2, 2012

follow the path to
the waking world beyond the
emotions - colours

Saturday, December 1, 2012

crazy insane mad -
the jittery jagged reds
screaming - the dark storm

Friday, November 30, 2012

one magpie is all
I ever see, I search but
fail, maybe one day

Thursday, November 29, 2012

in the dark storm, I
cut my wrists and out flew crows,
which pecked and fought - Moon

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

walking in the dawn
light after being naked
in the dark storm - breathe

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

walk into the night
and sink beneath the waves of
sleep - drown in rainbows

Monday, November 26, 2012

the psychosis leaks
out of my eyes - the darkness
smells of rotten milk

Sunday, November 25, 2012

chalk - tea - shells - the beach -
images and random thoughts -
flooded neurons - web

Saturday, November 24, 2012

inside the warm smell
of roasting chicken - outside
the dark and rain - tea

Friday, November 23, 2012

early morning light
fills the day like flood water,
colour seeps in - tea

Thursday, November 22, 2012

solid shapes and dark
shadows - rain soaked visions in
the early morning

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

ancient sea life - chalk -
children writing on the street -
hopscotch squares - school - time

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

walk up the hill and
look at the view of stars, the
city and smile - chalk

Monday, November 19, 2012

slice my brain - pickle
it - concentrate the darkness
and sell the despair

Sunday, November 18, 2012

drown me slowly in
the river of your eyes and
let me sleep and dream

Friday, November 16, 2012

overheard voices -
real or hallucination -
visions in the dark -
when I see you speak, I know -
if not then doubt gnaws my eyes

Thursday, November 15, 2012

steadily - firmly
apply the brakes - my runaway
mind - slows - copes - I'm safe

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

drink from the well of
darkness and hallucinate
the river of stars

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

serene - tranquil - waves
and breathing - take some time - be -
drink the air deeply

Monday, November 12, 2012

patchwork of leaves on
the wet pavement as I walk
to work - evening shift

Sunday, November 11, 2012

I am broken and
I feel the darkness shine from
the cracks in my mind

Saturday, November 10, 2012

drink a cup of tea
and let go of Erebus - breathe deep
then shave and bathe - live

Friday, November 9, 2012

the lynch mob - witch - witch -
burn the old woman - feedback
loops - hysteria

Thursday, November 8, 2012

triangle circle
square - pyramid ball cube - time -
infinity - blue

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

take a razor and
slice open my eye, then watch
the darkness pour out

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

blood, memory, tears -
the forest floor sodden wet,
leaves and moss - the bridge

Monday, November 5, 2012

fold the darkness and
cover it in silence - stars
fall and shadows grow

Sunday, November 4, 2012

where were they're there their -
you're your it's its words words words -
meaning from the well

Saturday, November 3, 2012

artificial light
cuts into my eyes - yellow
jagged photons - tilt

Friday, November 2, 2012

silver diamonds rain -
the snow falling on graves and
light falling on leaves

Thursday, November 1, 2012

lying beneath the
ice and rock a fire burns - Mount
Erebus growls - life

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

storms pass and the dead
are buried - wars end - empires
fall - the sun rises

Monday, October 29, 2012

austerity votes
Keynes - elections - Euro -
storms at sea pass - sky

Sunday, October 28, 2012

sandwiches for work -
beer on Saturday night - it's
like being normal

Saturday, October 27, 2012

chicken casserole -
washing machine on spin - a
domestic day - warm

Friday, October 26, 2012

hours work money time
life calculations money
time hours money

Thursday, October 25, 2012

stone water pool blue
dreams colours floating flying
diving drifting sleep

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

how is it my fault -
feedback anxiety - blame -
fear - let go - fuck it

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

the year pulls into
the dark - the fog and leaves - wet -
constant damp - grey days

Monday, October 22, 2012

the moon - the tide - light
and dark - menstruation - leaves
falling - the rhythms

Sunday, October 21, 2012

watching clouds - watching,
day by day, as the leaves turn
and fall - the rhythms

Saturday, October 20, 2012

talk about ideas -
fixate on empty landscapes -
swim through the snow drift

Friday, October 19, 2012

in the dark - collect
single photons from stars near
time's beginning - pool

Thursday, October 18, 2012

in the dark - loops - stars -
dopamine - motor function -
inside outside - fire

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

fire neural networks
inside a dream - memories
awake and links - fresh

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

an extension of
the human sensorium
crawls across Mars - eyes

Monday, October 15, 2012

breathe - feedback to the
beach and flow with the waves - in
and out - rhythms - time

Sunday, October 14, 2012

fragments of madness -
ceramic shards set with glue -
maggots and flies - food

Saturday, October 13, 2012

clamber over the
wall and drop to the other
side - I push myself

Friday, October 12, 2012

the photons smash my
eyes with diamonds and waves of
colour and grey - walls

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

the domino wave
of days falling - Rome burns - Moon
walk - Red Giant Sol

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

frozen - the bridge - rope -
starlight - the scaffolding - choice -
jump or live - moments

Monday, October 8, 2012

thirteen point seven -
the constant wave of now, we
ride from birth to death

Sunday, October 7, 2012

flooded red brick ruins -
a dream landscape I swim through -
drip - ripples - green - blue

Saturday, October 6, 2012

get plenty of sleep
and swim in the chocolate
river of dreams - milk

Friday, October 5, 2012

noisy students next
door - my karmic comeuppance
for when I was one

Thursday, October 4, 2012

blisters on my feet -
pierce with a knife and watch clear
fluid emerge - soft

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

sand - driftwood - shells - dunes -
waves - gulls - warmth - sailing boats - breeze -
spinnaker - water

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

seduce the rainbow
and wrap the sunlight inside
a memory - tea

Monday, October 1, 2012

wrapped in silence - a
duvet of dark warmth - holding
me tenderly - black

Saturday, September 29, 2012

sleep calls me and the
melody of the river
is far away - drift

Friday, September 28, 2012

bees - ants - spiders - wasps -
fear - work - swarm intelligence -
bitter sweet pill - breathing

Thursday, September 27, 2012

caught in a feedback
loop -- anxiety makes me
anxious and I spin

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

I could not claim to
be happy - I could not claim
to be sad - sea shells

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

it was only the
roaring of lions in my
blood - fight or flight - breathe

Monday, September 24, 2012

water - the beach - shells -
the sunlight - the waves
breaking - sensations

Sunday, September 23, 2012

cares - anxieties -
fears - psychoses - gravel dragged -
vinegar washed - wave

Saturday, September 22, 2012

walk in the light of
simple things - friends, good books, wine
and good food - live life

Friday, September 21, 2012

Fiona Bone - you
weren't the pretty one - you
were the leader - first in

badger, hard worker
sociable with inner steel
the cyclops killed you
no Odysseus to save you
no hero
did you shield your young
companion
or was it too quick,
too brutal -
blown from life
a routine call

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Fiona Bone of
the thin blue line - bad luck and
monsters killed you - dice

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

inchworm - beauty - art -
Blake - Newton - science - Hubble -
the cosmos - truth - Keats

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

I am not alone.
I have friends and will make it
through - walk on the beach

Monday, September 17, 2012

a constant battle
against the anxiety -
win inches of space
monster wrestling
wears me out like fighting a
rip tide - exhaustion

Sunday, September 16, 2012

stroke the monster and
learn control - stop the rampage
through my soul. - Taste quiet - .

Saturday, September 15, 2012

coping strategies -
learn to breathe - learn to let go -
learn to hope - learn - live

Friday, September 14, 2012

chains - nettles - eyes - hooks -
tear my flesh and my soul --- wash
me with air - cleanse me

Thursday, September 13, 2012

kibble clobber klein
the bottle space dimensions -
schizoid pieces bow

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

odd ball loner who
lacks self esteem or just
a romantic? - who?

Monday, September 10, 2012

step back and let go -
flow and drift on a silken
stream - to the sea - air

Sunday, September 9, 2012

the jagged jangles -
the butterflies that bite and
gnaw your stomach - fear

Saturday, September 8, 2012

don't go there -- put the
darkness down and live in the
moment - a lily

Friday, September 7, 2012

all of the shadows
wait and watch - the ants whisper
and the spiders dance

Thursday, September 6, 2012

so close to the edge,
I see a vision of a
future - stars shining

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

a shoulder - river -
harlequin - time - salt and the
beach - uncertainty

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

the violence of
time which takes no prisoners
and has no mercy

Monday, September 3, 2012

break the discarded
shells and crumble them onto
the sand - violence

Sunday, September 2, 2012

seaborg and nargles,
washed by the sun of true friends,
float and dissolve - salt

Saturday, September 1, 2012

seaborg and nargles -
dragonflies and the river -
the beach and the rain

Friday, August 31, 2012

the shape of silence
is smooth and round - a pebble
the size of an egg

Thursday, August 30, 2012

The dark whispers in
my ear, "Summer is dying".
Night creeps and rises.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

aeroplanes - lions -
dragonflies and zoos - twisted
thoughts and jealousy

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

I had a bucket
full of rain water - like love:
it went down the drain

Monday, August 27, 2012

You took his name and
I need to accept that and
be happy for you.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

just make a cup of
tea and do the laundry and
plod. You took his name.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

learn the alphabet -
the pasta shapes and pesto
of poverty - ice

Friday, August 24, 2012

learning to live with
fear and stress and not drown in
the tsunami - walk

Thursday, August 23, 2012

zombies lurch and yet
slowly I cope with the fear
and learn to survive

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

a blood splattered wall -
a bridge - a rope - exit right -
paracetamol

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

strawberries - wine gums -
fruit tea and sunshine - books - friends -
stroking a cat - swim

Monday, August 20, 2012

Godzilla screaming
is how it feels - racing heart
panic attack - waves

Sunday, August 19, 2012

tidy unused love
into a box, and keep it
safe; in case of fire

Saturday, August 18, 2012

I put my heart in
vinegar to preserve it -
a jar on a shelf

Friday, August 17, 2012

cut my heart and let
fall a drop of blood into
the river - dissolve
sew a patch onto
my heart with a needle and
nettle thread - acid

Thursday, August 16, 2012

a boat on the sand
full of holes and moss - flaking
paint - drawer with seashells
I saw the river
flow past my dream of love and
I'm a boat on sand
I saw the river
flow past my dream and I was
left awake - a boat
I saw the river
flow past my dream - gravity
called it to the sea
I saw the river
flow past my dream - it quenched
my soul's ache - the sea

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

the colours mingle
and spin - transfiguration -
identities fold

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

the bride wore red and
walked around the fire with him -
barefoot and smiling

Monday, August 13, 2012

you looked so happy -
I must dig my veins and be
happy for you - green

Sunday, August 12, 2012

the ashes of love
reveal a phoenix - it flies -
it must be free - sky
phoenix egg - magic
thoughts - swirling red silk and gold -
walk around the fire
listen to music -
slide - drink tea - slide - spin and
circle - slide - and fall
put my hand into
the boiling water and feel
the release - let go
I held the screaming
inside today - the bubbles
are diminishing
I can not say. My
tongue must be sealed in wax. My
feelings ... you are his

Saturday, August 11, 2012

take my heart, cut it
into thin strips, gently fry
over a low heat

Friday, August 10, 2012

cloud - pyramid - oil -
basil - bonsai - badger - work -
the bridge - red chillies

Thursday, August 9, 2012

lemon sorbet heart -
in the dark, in the light - sour -
sweet - an asteroid
I insist you love me,
but you don't, fall free from the
gravity and fly
I bleed in the dark
but it's OK, the river
washes my soul - salt

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

go left and take the
interesting path - journey
through woods and mountains

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

hold on, hold on as
the days fall like rain drops - dance -
eat mashed potato

Monday, August 6, 2012

I drink fruit tea - breathe -
embroidering the silence
without you with calm

Sunday, August 5, 2012

vignettes of darkness
and sunlit beaches washed by
smooth breathing waves - fold

Saturday, August 4, 2012

the choices you make
that ripple down the time line
of your life - drugs - school

Friday, August 3, 2012

let the poison in
my head drain away through my
tears - remember light

Thursday, August 2, 2012

the weeds tangled in
my head, that choked my path and
left me lonely - breeze

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

my brain fizzles and
pops - new medication sinks
into the grey sponge

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

dandelion and
buddleia and cannabis -
weeds that coil and spread
knowledge
know ledge
shelf, ledge, edge of the sea
a beach on which wash up strange ideas, dreams and thoughts
mindfulness
collect driftwood see the shapes and textures
the ledge that rises out of the depths
a special place to walk

Monday, July 30, 2012

collecting driftwood
for a fire on the beach - turn
the sand to glass - stars

Sunday, July 29, 2012

quiet the riot
of agitation and breathe
swimming oxygen

Saturday, July 28, 2012

the writhing earthworms -
bird food - eaters of corpses -
dank decay - mushrooms

Friday, July 27, 2012

a playground of frogs
and snails - the night time rain in
summer - the earthworms

Thursday, July 26, 2012

dip into a book
like going for a swim in
a beautiful pool

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

my eyelids are sewn
shut with nettles - the future
spins dark gravity

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

medication and
meditation - I cling to a
jagged cliff - salt air

Monday, July 23, 2012

my heart is tattooed
with blue ink - her name, demons,
and eyes - stop the drum

Sunday, July 22, 2012

building sand castles
that will be washed away by
the tide of time - smoke

Saturday, July 21, 2012

I am a loser
and I drift away on the breeze -
a purple balloon

Friday, July 20, 2012

whisper psychosis
and plant the seeds of demons -
dandelion roots

Thursday, July 19, 2012

tears of a dragon
burn diamonds and hang from my
fingertips like dew

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

there is a darkness
in me which shines from my eyes -
wash it away - love

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

steam open her mind
and read the contents - letters
of darkness and light

Monday, July 16, 2012

focus on the smell -
barefoot in the woods - the moon -
the stirring leaves - blink

Sunday, July 15, 2012

the silk sun shines gold
on the wall and fades - as day
turns to twilight - breathe

Saturday, July 14, 2012

turn the elephant
upside down and paint flowers
on your eyelids - silk

Friday, July 13, 2012

close your eyes and breathe,
let the dark water wash you,
and float - live now - swim

Thursday, July 12, 2012

belong - begin - try -
the water dances with light -
chilli - incense - flow

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

gently, gently hold
my mind - keep it away from
the fire - razor blade

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

the delusions and
all the illusions within -
magical thinking

Monday, July 9, 2012

I fall and I fear
the inexorable tide
sweeping in - darkness

Sunday, July 8, 2012

on the ocean floor
amid the coral and the
fish -- swirling currents

Saturday, July 7, 2012

zombies are marching
across the ocean floor - to
my island - my home

Friday, July 6, 2012

the house leaks and the
sky is grey - wet summer - green
verdant growth - damp warmth

Thursday, July 5, 2012

holding on tight to
a silk thread - survival - blind
to the future - ping
watched by ants and the
spiders are listening - blink
because the eyes scream

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

although tomorrow
I may commit suicide,
today the sun shone
sawdust and tears - paint -
the hearth - the sunshine - blue pool -
fresh air and flowers

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

the mountain - the snow -
I live by the river - quiet -
crayon on the wall

Monday, July 2, 2012

alienated -
razor blade fracture - mountain,
another planet

Sunday, July 1, 2012

lemon - vinegar -
wine - clear light through water - pain -
love - loss - mountain - snow

Saturday, June 30, 2012

I love to dream but
tonight I saw the ovens
of Auschwitz - dust plumes
Holocaust ovens -
Not for baking bread - cooks flesh
And turns it to dust
I saw the dust plumes -
Holocaust volcanoes - dream -
crematoria
There was a train and
a valley filled with ashes -
Holocaust ovens

Friday, June 29, 2012

the seasons - rhythms -
the sun phasing in and out -
photons and shadows

Thursday, June 28, 2012

gods and goddesses
of rivers and fire, the sky,
the seasons - rhythms

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

acidalia -
Aphrodite washes in the
fountain - the Graces

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

close the door and switch
off the lights - I don't live here
anymore - darkness

Monday, June 25, 2012

let go of the dark -
let go of tomorrow and
yesterday too - clear

Sunday, June 24, 2012

desert - swirling wind -
loneliness - martian wasteland -
acidalia

Saturday, June 23, 2012

slut - whore - magdalene -
words thrust at women who break
the rules - labels - roles

Friday, June 22, 2012

buddleia - nano -
the postcyberpunk visions -
rain and ants - neurons

Thursday, June 21, 2012

I am dragged across
a carpet of razor blades
and blood - the ants watch

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

the joy of life and
the Protestant work ethic -
the beach and the ants

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

I want to whip you
and I want to lick you 'til
you shudder and burn

Monday, June 18, 2012

staring at the wall -
lost deep inside magical
thinking - swim - surface

Sunday, June 17, 2012

circle - gravity -
hydrogen - supernova -
tidal forces - make

Saturday, June 16, 2012

it doesn't have to
be perfect - the important
thing is "to do" - shells

Friday, June 15, 2012

lemon and water -
the changing light moving through
the glass - ice surface

Thursday, June 14, 2012

drift on the breeze like
a money spider - sky high -
across oceans - reach

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

I need to rewire -
neuroplasticity is
my hope - change - learn - build

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

pasta, green pesto,
soured cream with chillies, spring
onions and sausage

Monday, June 11, 2012

slice, slide, sycamore -
propeller, parent - death - dust -
metal rich stars - time

Sunday, June 10, 2012

drink water - hide in
clouds of sleep and dream of flight -
kites and balloons - sand

Saturday, June 9, 2012

midnight from my eyes
burn hollow flower stems and
petals turn to ice

Friday, June 8, 2012

detach from the world
and stop worrying about
things you cannot change

Thursday, June 7, 2012

the campfire burns bright -
Corona Borealis -
and satellites pass

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Erebus and Nyx -
a fantasy that haunts me -
it will never be

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Lagrange point - balance -
Ithaca - swimming - changing
light and the tide - Moon

Monday, June 4, 2012

slowly walking home -
little girl on my shoulders -
my friend's daughter - shells

Sunday, June 3, 2012

silver - purple - black -
the end of the river smiles -
shoulder - gentle rain

Saturday, June 2, 2012

globular clusters -
the Milky Way's rotation -
the Crab Nebula

Friday, June 1, 2012

a zeppelin of
emotion on fire - raining
debris down my soul

Thursday, May 31, 2012

it takes - time and love
to overcome trauma - the
first step - and courage

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

I fold the silence
into parcels and eat it
like ravioli

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

mustard - shells - photons -
a multiverse of bubbles -
O-type star burning

Monday, May 28, 2012

the clear warm water -
friends and light glittering dance -
remember sunlight

Sunday, May 27, 2012

blades of grass - ants with
mandibles sharp - scuttling,
searching - random paths

Saturday, May 26, 2012

magical thinking -
Erebus and Nyx - liquid
gravity - clusters

Friday, May 25, 2012

clay - mud - weeds - nature -
the forest - ants foraging -
emergence - patterns

Thursday, May 24, 2012

walk in the sunlight -
walk under the stars - photons -
weightless hope - magic

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

put your hand under
the tap, feel the water flow
and watch the light dance

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

wander with purpose -
the pursuit of happiness -
an ant in a maze

Monday, May 21, 2012

my mind wanders from
the Cambrian Explosion
to Andromeda

Sunday, May 20, 2012

tiger - buddha - dice -
poker chip - chilli pepper -
555 timer

Saturday, May 19, 2012

jump Yossarian -
survival and learning - break
and remould - glue - build

Friday, May 18, 2012

the world is too loud
for my sanity to bear -
needles pierce my eyes
splintering fragments -
brittle ceramic self chips,
blisters and melts - help

Thursday, May 17, 2012

steam - flowers - clouds - bricks -
the maze of rainbows and tears -
friction - teeth - boat - tea

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

the sleeping dragon
with suicide claws - darkness
razor and vomit

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

steam - friction - atoms -
electrons - copper - foil - north -
charged particles - cell

Monday, May 14, 2012

photon rain falling
from the blue - there is no ice
just silver freedom

Sunday, May 13, 2012

asteroid - darkness -
independence - ice - shadows -
distant sun - orbit

Saturday, May 12, 2012

different flavours
from head and tails - character -
add water and lime

Friday, May 11, 2012

distill the spirit -
save the heart - discard the rest -
love is all - drink deep

Thursday, May 10, 2012

stimulus - response -
a word - a spider - art - tears -
mind and soul react

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

surface - texture - wall -
the changing light - the mirrors,
reflections, shadows

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

make a map of a
word - the valleys and mountains -
a thousand contexts

Monday, May 7, 2012

slowly - simple - build -
release and relax - unfold -
live life - stretch, eat, laugh

Sunday, May 6, 2012

light sparkling fizz
of photons dancing off the
water - swirl - glisten

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Erebus - the bridge -
water - dew in the morning -
awake - asteroid

Friday, May 4, 2012

lemon zest and lime -
blue flower and vodka - Nyx -
shield and desire - smoke

Thursday, May 3, 2012

feathers - dinosaurs -
orbits - oceans - Europa -
seeds - meteorites

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Little by little -
a lullaby for nargles -
quiet my wasps - sleep

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

crayons for the soul -
express, like a child; trees, sun,
stars and the moonlight

Monday, April 30, 2012

walk out of the wood
and read a good book - the bridge
of wrought darkness melts

Sunday, April 29, 2012

egg fried rice - mushrooms -
silicon - main function - love -
layers - sediment

Saturday, April 28, 2012

my maladaptive
coping strategies have to
change - dance and lemon

Friday, April 27, 2012

spiders - bills - money -
washing up - jagged - jagged
fear - learning to cope

Thursday, April 26, 2012

talking of my plan
for suicide - listening,
the doctor - step - step

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

citrus - mushroom - rope -
poison eyes - anxiety -
doctor tomorrow

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

learning to relax
and resist the fight or flight
adrenaline bite

Monday, April 23, 2012

voices over wires
and images over light -
the modern world linked

Sunday, April 22, 2012

snowdrops - crocuses -
daffodils - tulips and Spring -
evolving colour

Saturday, April 21, 2012

the peace of my heart
that I left with you, unquiet
and bleeding I wait

Friday, April 20, 2012

jagged broken mind,
flaking and shaking with fear,
turn my back and swim

Thursday, April 19, 2012

splinters - fragments - loop
spinning thoughts spiral repeat
help me I'm falling

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

will I see next year,
I try and live day by day -
sirens call - endif

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

define mylife - (its
functions), trying to love, work,
and create - struggle

Monday, April 16, 2012

ifndef mylife -
drifting - lazy - good - have friends -
books - films - dreams of her

Sunday, April 15, 2012

vodka, fresh lime and
soda alternating with
Guinness - suicide

Saturday, April 14, 2012

I dreamt of rivers
and the sea, toy boats, flooded
cities - a playground

Friday, April 13, 2012

photons - love - stars - tears -
heart distillate - and a bit
of head and tail - blood

Thursday, April 12, 2012

facing the madness
and the swirling winds that drive
my thoughts like clouds - fly

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

places on the map
that I gaze at - that bring me
peace - Chesapeake - Loire

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

in my fractured mind -
shuffle the pieces to make
a pleasing picture

Monday, April 9, 2012

force quit - the bridge - rain -
self esteem - cast iron - plants -
the disused railway

Sunday, April 8, 2012

the bones of the skull -
the delicate case of nerves -
anatomy - flesh

Saturday, April 7, 2012

the transmutation
of symbols inside dreams, nerves
fire and dance - twist - swirl

Friday, April 6, 2012

association
and memory, wood pigeon -
I'm a child - Sandbanks

Thursday, April 5, 2012

balloon - blue - music -
release me and sail away
before I burst - moon

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

rainy April day,
film day, book day, programming,
while away the time

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

taste the sunlight fruit
inside the wine and release
the emotion - tears

Monday, April 2, 2012

vodka - distilled from
sunlight - add more sun in the
form of orange juice

Sunday, April 1, 2012

walking through the fields,
the sunshine feels like laughter -
end up at the pub

Saturday, March 31, 2012

fear - anxiety -
homosexuality -
race - the devil - kids

Friday, March 30, 2012

tomorrow or
in a hundred years, when I
die, the next Spring will ...

Thursday, March 29, 2012

light - water - stars - milk -
cover my eyes and sleep 'til
dreams evaporate

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

the darkness inside
burns my hope, consuming me,
wither in the fire

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

my gallows tree gate
home sleeps in the moonlight, bridge
to oblivion

Monday, March 26, 2012

nuclear fallout,
the drizzle of cinders - ash -
half-life - the ruins

Sunday, March 25, 2012

meaning and knowledge,
the slow accumulation,
geological

Saturday, March 24, 2012

whisper and listen,
for the moonlight's reply, hope -
the glass and lemon

Friday, March 23, 2012

the shells - the bones - crunch,
dry, brittle as leaves - dead, drift,
plate tectonics - waves

Thursday, March 22, 2012

falling from the bridge,
dancing in the air, I do
not see tomorrow

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

burning in the cold,
burning in the dark, as I
fall, heaven is locked - shriek

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

slowly bleed the tears
from inside - disengage the
spirals and let go

Monday, March 19, 2012

I want to hold you
in my eyes and never let
you go - flower blue

Sunday, March 18, 2012

drinking water - light -
lemon zest and clear - we talk,
blue electrons - glass

Saturday, March 17, 2012

the march of the borg
and the cyber damned - punks in
Burma - aesthetics

Friday, March 16, 2012

cut my throat and watch
my eyeballs dry - in time
the moonlight melts bones

Thursday, March 15, 2012

introvert - books and
stars, the beach and programming,
poetry - water

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

I like peace and quiet,
not the sensory onslaught,
overload - beach

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

in the radiance,
in a shower of light, swim
in the photons - warm

Monday, March 12, 2012

I like to cry and
release - just for a moment -
the feelings inside

Sunday, March 11, 2012

orbiting a star,
periapsis - breaks my heart,
still too far from warmth

Saturday, March 10, 2012

watching changing light -
the complex emotions shift,
rise and fall - human

Friday, March 9, 2012

seaborg and nargles -
fruit tea and sun rise - photons
shoot from fusion - build

Thursday, March 8, 2012

I'm too scared to die,
I'm scared of being homeless,
the future rips me.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

find the path - survive -
navigate the darkness - this
too shall pass - and light

Monday, March 5, 2012

rejection - blood - eyes -
pills - suicide - self esteem -
break - broken - glue - hope

Sunday, March 4, 2012

seaborg and nargles -
the desire and the despair -
poison and rope - love

Saturday, March 3, 2012

seaborg and nargles -
moon full of serenity -
blue you tear me - Klimt

Friday, March 2, 2012

drowning not waving -
you do not see me - I am
an acquaintance - sand

Thursday, March 1, 2012

I am lost and last
and falling - letting go - shells
crunch under my feet

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

twisted - tilted - sharp -
spiraling thoughts - delusions -
paranoia - fire

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

salt - spiders - childhood -
razors - survival - echoes -
dust - day by day - teeth

Monday, February 27, 2012

the sand and pebbles -
changing shape of the coastline -
fossils in the cliffs

Sunday, February 26, 2012

the sea - the castle -
the burning ships - history -
stars burn and fail - shells

Saturday, February 25, 2012

staring at the wall -
zombied by medication -
psychosis at bay

Friday, February 24, 2012

burn the melodies -
drown the sunsets with razors -
money keeps the score

Thursday, February 23, 2012

lost in the forest
Varus and the legions - trees
and leaves bury them

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

letters - photographs -
my father's hat - to me
possessions of worth

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

talon - liver - death -
alcohol - release - the sharp
stab of tomorrow

Monday, February 20, 2012

within the confines
of seventeen sounds - the pulse
of an idea

Sunday, February 19, 2012

sea glass tumbling -
deep time - geology - star
formation and fall

Saturday, February 18, 2012

I see your face and
listen to the eyelashes
that whip my heart - cut

Friday, February 17, 2012

mustard - carbon - steel -
chilli seeds - roots - friends - love - dance -
rolling - tumbling

Thursday, February 16, 2012

dance between bubbles -
swim through the silken dreams of
liquid - gasps - grasps - gone

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

gaps in the clouds - strange
the roller coaster journey
in light - low tide sand

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

purple - the words - string
of silence threaded through blue
and red - valentine

Monday, February 13, 2012

watering the plants
and making a stew, slowly
moving through the day

Sunday, February 12, 2012

creating habits -
remould your life to explore
talents - stretch and learn

Saturday, February 11, 2012

folded - bound - breathing -
the darkness lingers in the
corners and waits - turns

Friday, February 10, 2012

the rainforest coughs
and struggles for air amid
the choking fires - threat

Thursday, February 9, 2012

my mind was whipped with
nettles and I survived curled
under dream's blue skies

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

eating soil - spitting
out the fragments of sorrow -
tend the plants - blindfold

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

backbone of jelly -
creature made of porcelain -
I am both - under

Monday, February 6, 2012

I can't see the path
the fog has closed in - I move
inch by inch - the cliff

Sunday, February 5, 2012

tide pool - shadow - edge -
heroin - sleep - sea of clouds -
loneliness - escape

Saturday, February 4, 2012

I see the mirror
and the fragments of eyes - melt
boiled cabbage smell

Friday, February 3, 2012

a sliver of light -
maybe, maybe - a photon
of promise - of life

Thursday, February 2, 2012

sunset Groundhog Day -
to accumulate worth and
make life meaningful

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

I grasp at straws as
they blow away in the wind -
tomorrow scares me

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

jump cut - staccato -
fractured - strobe light - general
anxiety - breathe

Monday, January 30, 2012

I worry - I play
with scenarios until
anxiety screams

Sunday, January 29, 2012

unravel the rope -
the fears and darkness swinging
blindly in the night

Saturday, January 28, 2012

ruby and sapphire -
tender the love and stop - shells,
electrons, pressure

Friday, January 27, 2012

broken eyes and fire
on the tongue from chilli burn,
hope and pain - rainbow

Thursday, January 26, 2012

clay plant pot - rhythms -
water flowing from the tap -
development - change

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

spice and herbs - flavour -
creation and blank paper -
sperm and ovum - dance

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

growing chilli seeds,
finding the motivation
little by little

Monday, January 23, 2012

a weekend away -
time with friends - light for the soul -
the warm embrace - peace

Thursday, January 19, 2012

I was very dark -
but I reached out - and friends grasped
my hand - close - too close

Monday, January 16, 2012

walking in the dark -
the sea of tranquility
far away - cars - eyes

Sunday, January 15, 2012

you dance and dance and
cut my heart into ribbons,
wear them in your hair

Friday, January 13, 2012

wrapped in chocolate,
blindfolded in the silence,
wandering landscapes

Thursday, January 12, 2012

experiment - drive -
square wave sleep and dreams - strobing -
jolt and sink - fracture

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

a plane's vapour trail -
the jingle jangle laughter -
strobe lights in the trees

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

sleep - memory - dreams -
coffee edge - mirror shard slice -
tangled mangled light

Monday, January 9, 2012

sleep - memory - dreams -
modelling the world - feelings -
landscapes - rivers - rain

Sunday, January 8, 2012

samurai washing -
Odysseus blood spattered
before his nurse - home

Saturday, January 7, 2012

sometimes the sky clears,
the sun shines through - better days
when the pain retreats

Friday, January 6, 2012

to live with the pain -
cancer of the soul - clenched knots
of darkness - eating

Thursday, January 5, 2012

I want to live but
the quicksand pulls at my soul
and I am drowning

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

look to the future?
the empty maw that yawns wide -
a mustard seed - grasp

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

the night looked at me
and I was hollow, a wall,
a pebble on fire
throw exceptions and
catch the errors - interrupts -
you looked at me - Nyx

Monday, January 2, 2012

peasant food - garlic -
chicken and sunshine - peppers
and enchiladas

Sunday, January 1, 2012

weave a tapestry
and dance in Neptune's orbit -
scorpion love - moon